Let me start off by saying without a higher being, I don’t know where I would be! God is freaking AWESOME!!!
So far I have experienced my second breakdown this semester! Hard to believe right? I wear my mask very well!!
I had a project due yesterday and I swear…without the help of one of my bonifide friends, who knows what I would have done! During the breakdown, I said to myself…I can’t do this school S*&t, why am I here, I’m all alone (no significant other) , all my friends and family are back in NY, etc…I drove home from my friends house emotional and FRUSTRATED…I don’t even know how I made it to my house safe with the way I was driving! When I arrived, I sat in my car and cried my eyes out yelling: God, why am I struggling so much when everyone else is at ease? Have I done something wrong? Why am I so slow and stupid?!?!?! Can you even see me talking like that? It was a scary moment in time!
At that juncture, my friend called me to see if I OK and then she heard in my voice I was crying and started to cry herself. That made me cry even more! She then went on to say, “You’re the stronget person I know. You’re fighter”…OMG…the tears just kept coming down! Sometimes we really don’t know what our friends truly think of us until a situation happens! DAMN…talk about a bitter sweet moment. At the end, I went back to her house and she helped me out until 3am both Sunday and Monday!
End result: I excecuted the presentation! Talk about a TRUE FRIEND! Thanks Claudia! Love you man!
